Can you hlp with this friendship issue?

I tell her i hate her cuz she makes me so mad but i want her to be my friend. I tell her that im depressed again but she says that its not her fault or anybodys fault but mine and says she sticks up for me always. I rele douted she ever stood up for me so i asked for example and asked why its my fault that i dont have good friends, just the friends that i have to ask to be with. She doesnt answer me and we have ignored each other for a few days and i cant take it. I dont want to be the one to try and make our friend ship but i want to say something to her that will make her answer me but not make her too mad. A little mads ok tho